Saying Goodbye

Wednesday, 30 May 2018

I don't think loosing someone ever gets easier, and it doesn't matter how long we had to prepare. On Tuesday morning we lost Tony's grandma to cancer. It was a long hard battle, and she was finally laid to rest in the most beautiful place, outside the prettiest little church.
Im writing this to tell Penelope one day, what a beautiful woman her grandma was. Tony loved her more than anyone, so much so that we named Penelope "Frances" after her.
So one day, when I tell her how she got her beautiful name.. we can tell her it was because of Saint Frances, her wonderful grandma Frances Gibson.

I want to still respect the family, but I also want to share a few pictures of Penelope and her great grandma.

3 Month Update (14 weeks old)

Tuesday, 29 May 2018

It's so amazing and miraculous how three months can entirely change your whole twenty-seven year old world as you know it. I have learnt so much in only twelve weeks, about my baby but also about myself, as a mother and as a person. 
Milestones this month:
- she mimics the sounds, movements and expressions we make. 
- can raise her head for more than a few seconds and turn to either side while on her tummy. 
- she opens and closes her hands, usually holding her toys now and gives them a good shake.
- she has increased hand and eye coordination which she can now use to grab at toys, and objects. 
- she also bats at handing toys above her
- can kick like no tomorrow and swing her arms so fast. 

Five Senses: 
- Not only is she working on becoming a great communicator, but she makes eye contact with everyone and give s a little smile. She also recognizes faces now, like me and her dad, my sister and my parents. 
- She can follow objects with her eyes, and watches her parents doing things around her. 
- One of my favourite things she does, is she smiles when she hears my voice. Every morning while Tonys away he Facetimes us and her eyes light up, she squeals, smiles and kicks when she hears/sees him. 

Weight, Clothing sizes and how much she's eating: 
I haven't weighed her recently (in the last week), but the last time I did she was already 14 lbs! She is currently wearing 3-6 month clothing which makes me sad because I went through all her clothes and put away her 'newborn' outfits. She can still barely fit her 0-3 month outfits, but ill probably be putting those away really soon too. 
I don't ever pump because I never leave her, but I did go for surgery recently and I wasn't able to breast feed so we supplemented formula. I found that she was able to drink a full 6oz bottle like nothing and most of the time she would cry for another bottle. Which means she's getting enough food from breastfeeding! 

Her favourite things: 
Books, light up dog, musical/light up book, sucking and chewing on her hands, chewing on her blanket and teething rings!   

3 month schedule:
Penelope usually wakes up by 6:00 - 6:30.  
Eats and hone is sleeping again by 9 for her first nap. 
We usually go for a morning walk, come home and eat breakfast in the back yard and she goes for another nap around 11. 
I wil eat and get some work done before she wakes up again. 
We usually do something fun and spend time together singing or playing in her room with her sensory mat. 
Usually she will take a nap between now and dinner, then after dinner its time for her bath.
Penelope love her baths! She is defiantly a water baby, and is going to love swimming when she's older. 
If P isn't in bed and sleeping by 6:30 -7:00pm she will start to FREAK out, you know the turning red and boogers everywhere kind of freak out. So I make sure I have a set bed time routine for her, that includes reading one of her baby books and singing "hush little baby" or "amazing grace" (haha I don't know why I always sing her this song but she loves it).   
As for sleeping all night, she still will wake up around 12 and 4 to feed and I don't really expect that to change until she's done with breastfeeding all together.  

Other updates:
Penelope has started TEETHING!! Like seriously she is only 3 months, and is drooling and defiantly working on something in there. She is starting to talk more, and make more sounds like 

What diapers we use for our sensitive baby

Sunday, 27 May 2018

Our daughter Penelope was born with her daddy's super sensitive skin, and we soon realized it was going to be a problem when it came to almost every product we had in our house hold. Almost every lotion, spray and even the cleaning products had to be changed to a chemical-free solution that was preferably organic as well. 
Before P was born we thought we would cut some of the new baby costs, by using some of the items we were given for free or as gifts just like every new parent does. 

One night after a routine changing of our then 5 day old baby, I noticed she had a rash around her diaper and in true new-mom form I immediately contacted our midwife who said just to,
"keep an eye on the rash, and if it changes or progresses to contact them immediately". 
Only an hour or so after that changing it was time to change her again, this time I noticed whatever was causing the rash around her stomach and legs was from the diaper. 

Things didn't stop there, the next morning we woke up to Penelope's face completely swollen, red and  dry. I of course started to panic, not knowing what had done this to my baby! I mentally went through everything that I had given to her, even the things that I ate since I was still breast feeding. 

Thank goodness Tony was familiar with her rash, and immediately recognized it as eczema. As a child he would break out really bad in a hot, itchy rash from using anything that wasn't Aveno. He said he would have baby oil baths because his skin was horribly dry, and scaled.

Poor child. 

Knowing this I was determined to not have the same outcome for Penelope, and set off to find any natural products I could, which included finding a new diaper brand. 
Thats how I came to find Seventh Generation diapers, which is suppose to be better for sensitive baby skin and boasts about making products that are designed better for human and planet health. We also love the Honest Company, which is similar and also eco-friendly. Both companies have made their diapers really well and it doesn't hurt that they also look very cute!
I actually look forward to changing her diaper! 

Here is a list of products we use daily, and would recommend for your babies sensitive/eczema skin:

- Aveeno Baby, Eczema Care Moisturizing Cream  
- Aveeno Baby, Sunscreen SPF 50 
- Aveeno Baby, Lightly Scented Wash & Shampoo 
- Aveeno Baby, Daily Lotion 
- The Honest Co., Organic Healing Balm
- The Honest Co., Diapers 
- Seventh Generation Diapers Diapers 
- (Local) Evocative Essentials Baby Bum Spray & Baby Body Butter

Patio Season

Friday, 25 May 2018

We bought our home, and moved in during the late fall of last year. So I never got to see what we would be dealing with when it came to our garden. I was pleasantly surprised by the amount of landscaping the previous owners have done, but I still had work cut out for me. 
I was given these four hanging plants as a Mothers Day gift, from my sister. I decided to hang one off the front porch light, two off the back doors porch lights and one on the patio table just because I ran out of places to hang it.

I saw the patio lantern that you see here at Canadian Tire for $32. My plants were all found at Canadian Tire. I bought some spinach, and bell peppers that I am growing by kitchen window. I also bought some Mint, and Lavender that soaks up the afternoon light from our "coffee area". 

The outdoor rug was a find from The Real Canadian Superstore, and the pillows were $4 from Dollarramma (not a bad price, right?). 

Penelopes First May 24 at the Cottage

Thursday, 24 May 2018

This weekend was May 24. Now most college kids, and all the non-parents spend this weekend in a boozy-fun filled blur. Us on the other hand, the new parents we are had a very low-key, and very wet weekend at the cottage. After a quick visit to Tony's grandma who was diagnosed with cancer this past year, we had set off towards Cedar Point to catch the 1:30 ferry boat towards Christian Island. 
I know rain always makes things feel slow-moving, and lethargic. However, a good spring shower is always refreshing and restoring, which was exactly what our souls needed. 
We got to the cottage where we were greeted by both my parents, who promptly took Penelope so they can get some much needed grandma, grandpa, and Penelope time in.  We didn't mind. Tony and I crawled up the old wooden stairs that corkscrew in the middle of the cottage, up into my old bedroom. We laid there, quiet so we could hear the heavy rain outside the window. It's in those moments where we don't let the raindrops go to waste, where we have time to just be together without worry or thought of anyone but each other (and of Baby P of course, who is always in our thoughts even without meaning to be). 

Later that evening after a short but amicable nap, the rain had let up. Giving just the right amount of time for Tony and my dad to go try their hand at catching their first fish of the year (besides ice fishing). It was rather unsuccessful due to the cold temperatures and lack of thermocline. 
Around dinner our dear friends, and their daughter Isla came to meet Penelope for the first time and I was beyond thrilled that I managed to take out out my camera just in time to snap this moment. I can just imagine the fun these two will have in a few summers at this special little cottage on the lake.

You'll never guess what we found hidden in our back yard!

Monday, 21 May 2018

"There is pleasure in the pathless woods, there is rapture on the lonely shore, there is society, where no one intrudes, by the deep sea, and music by its roar. I love not man the less, but nature more." - Lord Byron 

Sometimes we like to take walks, get lost and find lakehouses... and sometimes its on purpose, but mostly by accident. Isn't that what makes life a grand adventure? Our little family walk took us through our backyard which coincidentally ends at a secret lake that's pretty much in our backyard!  

   Penelope is starting to laugh, I mean at this moment it's more of a gurgle, or a squeak.. but I just want to document this historic moment of our almost-laughing baby!

The New Mom Uniform

Sunday, 20 May 2018

Baby P has been all about her mama lately, which I love but at the same time I wish I could have a break. Im sure its very typical of breastfeed babies to have that attachment to their source of food, but what do you do when dad starts to feel left out? Tony mentioned the other day that he thinks she doesn't like him anymore, because during the first few weeks she would sit with him and only him, watch hockey and smile every time she herd his voice. 

On unrelated news, the OOTD pictures are what I like to call the "leggings-are-the-only-thing-that-fit-right-now" outfit, and "I'm-a-new-mom" outfit. My colder weather outfits basically consist of some kind of black legging from Walmart, or TNA and a pretty top. I went through my closet the other day, and made the conscious choice to pull my summer dresses out of storage, and even thou I can't fit into my jeans just yet I am mentally preparing my outfits as soon as I can fit them again. 

10 Things On My To-Do List

Thursday, 10 May 2018

1. Wake up make a coffee, oatmeal & go to the gym: We have made this our routine now for 3 weeks! weird thing is, I've actually gained weight...  confused? same. 

2. By another phone card: We've been budgeting so much lately, and have come to the conclusions a pay-as-you-go phone is so much cheaper than on a plan. Ill never sign another cellphone contract again, the amount of debt from me loosing my phone like 10 times a year is simply ridiculous, and now that we have a child things are changing around here.

3. Go grocery shopping: We've completely cut bread out (for the 3 weeks we've been working out for), and eating very clean. Meaning only whole, simple food and none of this eating fried anything anymore. I have honestly NEVER felt so good in YEARS.

4. Write a blog post: I’ve been attempting to write every night for the past week, and every time I’ve fallen asleep with my lap top on me. I have so many moments I want to write down to remember, I know I’ll thank myself later in life for these post’s. 

5. Take my pills: As I mentioned here before I was put on anti-depressant medication when I was pregnant, and that is part of my reason to workout everyday, to work on getting off everything. Except, my usual Omega 3’s, Prenatal, Magnesium Supplement, B12 & now birth control. 

6. Edit videos: I highly doubt I’m going to get around to doing this until after Tony leaves for school on Monday, but I really want to put together a few more videos of our family. 

7. Bath Penelope: Since she’s breastfed she doesn’t go poo everyday, and then there are some times when she goes twice in one day and it also explodes out of her diaper. 

8. Read a bedtime story to Penelope: Im getting in the habit of reading to her every night before bed. I remember some of the books that we have for her and I know she will love them just the same. 

9. Drink more Protein: We bought new protein (12 lbs of it actually), because we are that dedicated and back to our regular lifestyle which requires healthy eating and hours in the gym (my favourite). 

10. Spend as much time with Tony as we can: Tony leaves for school on Monday, which is 5 hours away. He has class from Monday - Friday and is staying in a dorm during the week. Its only for 3 months and we get to see him most weekends, but I plan on writing and taking even more pictures just so he won’t miss any major moments in Princess P’s life while he’s gone. I know ill be so bored without him, I know ill have baby but he is honestly my best friend. 

Time is the best gift

Tuesday, 8 May 2018

We often get caught up in the mundane rituals of our daily lives, and we forget to really "stop and smell the flowers", we forget that our moments with our loved ones can be fleeting.
I got a strong reality check the other day, twice in one day actually. Tuesday I got a phone call from my mom telling me my grandma had a heart attack, and was being transported to the Newmarket Hospital which specializes in anything to do with the heart. I took the baby and went to visit her in the hospital, just to make sure things were going to be okay. Mama's a fighter, let me tell you.. this lady wanted to go home the next day and after running tests and given some medication she was able to do just that.

Tuesday afternoon, my other grandma "Bubie" went to her doctors appointment just to confirm what we had all thought. Bubie has Alzheimer's. This sick and crippling disease is probably one of the worst, because even though they are physically here, mentally they aren't.
It was a strong reality check for me, to live in the moment, to keep those plans, to go above and beyond to spend time with my loved ones. In the end its not about the Gucci sunglasses or new trucks, its about spending your time with that person.

So Wednesday I made sure to call my sister and ask her to meet up with us for an afternoon walk. I went and picked up Bubie, and drove to my sisters with the baby of course. It was a beautiful day out for a walk, and I think being out doors and with family really helped Bubie with her depression (which is associated with Alzheimer's).

You never really know when something can happen to someone you love. I can't stress this enough, put down your phone, turn off your computer and really focus on making those connections while you still can. So, Im taking my own advice as I write this on my lap top this morning. My daughter is sitting in her chair looking at me, and I'm going to turn everything off and take her for a walk.

Hope you all spend some time with your loved ones today!

The Winter that didn't want to leave.

Friday, 4 May 2018

I have been trying to write this blog post now for a few days, each time starting it just to get busy and eventually feeling my eyes get heavier and heavier.. soon I was asleep. So needless to say it never got done, and I'm slowly figuring out this motherhood gig makes me crazy tired but so happy at the same time. 
I want to be able to write, document and journal a little something about my wonderful family every week just so I can look back one day at all our beautiful photos. This is my creative space that I am so proud of. 

Well its MAY! but the weather doesn't seem to have gotten the memo, because two weeks ago we had a massive snow storm (see picture above); then today it was plus 25 with a tornado warning! WTH!

Penelope is all smiles and laughs lately. She loves sucking her hands, and theres a lot of drooling which makes me very concerned that it might be the beginning of her teething, and let me tell you WE ARE NOT READY! 
She is also going through a "phase" where all she wants is her mommy, and screams bloody murder when her dad holds her. It breaks my heart because I don't want Tony to think she doesn't like him or be hurt by that. She just knows I'm her food source. 

The picture of baby P and her daddy in the tub tugs my heart strings every time. I just love the L-O-V-E in our little family so much.